lishesquex: (xena - comic)
Just saw this on a friend's Facebook page. Ridiculously accurate. Bolding/underlining things that currently apply.

INFJ – The Counselor

What stresses out an INFJ:
– Having to focus too much on sensory/concrete details
– An overload of sensory stimulation or noise
– Interruptions
– Distress within a close relationship
– Having their values violated
– Not enough alone time. Too much extraverting.
– Working with closed-minded people
– Lack of appreciation or understanding

– Unfamiliar environments with overwhelming amounts of details
– Having plans disrupted
– Not having a clear direction
– Lack of harmony
– Criticism and conflict
– Not being able to use their intuition or envision the future
– Having to focus too much on the present

When under stress, the INFJ feels fragmented or lost. They feel like they can’t be themselves, and feel an urge to act a part to “survive” or fit in. This disassociation can cause physical symptoms for the INFJ, like headaches, IBS, or nausea. The repressed feelings they’re holding onto can cause them to become immobilized. If they are under chronic extreme stress, they may fall into the grip of their inferior function, extraverted sensing. When this happens, they may engage in indulgent, self-destructive habits like binge-eating, cutting, over-exercising, alcoholism, or excessive pornography use. This often feels like an out-of-body experience to them. What they do provides no pleasure, but feels somewhat robotic and out of control. After this occurs, they dwell in self-hatred, falling even more into guilt over what they’ve done. They may become uncharacteristically angry and quick-tempered, unreasonable, and irrational. They may become obsessed with details in their outer world; obsessively cleaning or doing housework. They stumble over their words, and their intense feelings eventually lead them to a state of complete exhaustion.

Link here:

lishesquex: (Eurovision - Leto Svet)
Huh, I totally fell asleep last night IN MY CHAIR while posting this. Like seriously head lolling back, mouth open asleep.

From yesterday:

Work is stressing me out immensely at the moment. I worked more than 60 hours this week. I am still really enjoying teaching my senior classes even though it's so stressful. My Year 12s got a lower SAC average than the other class for the first time this year and I subsequently had a nightmare about all my kids failing and me being this horrible teacher. UGH STRESS. It doesn't help that the school exec are doing appraisals of Year 12 teachers' kids' results. Basically, at the end of the year, if my students don't perform above a certain level (something like a 34 study score average), I will have a meeting with my verynothot!boss and he will be like "EXPLAIN TO ME WHY THESE KIDS DO NOT HAVE BETTER MARKS."

This week was LOTE week and today all the Year 8s had to come dressed up in a different country/culture's clothes. Most of the kids came in various types of ethnic apparal, but there were three or four boys who came draped in Australian flags walking around with this cocky, challenging look. I can't remember when it was exactly that the Australian flag got hijacked by racists to become a symbol of White Power, but it's quite discomforting and sad to see.

Anyway. EUROVISION. I have banned myself from reading or watching the news until Eurovision is over so I don't accidentally spoil myself like I did last year. I watched Semi Final 1 tonight and was a little disappointed with the selection of countries that got through to the Final. I'm sad Finland and Slovakia did not get in. But at least Moldova, Serbia and Iceland made it through.
lishesquex: (OMG ONOZ)

- PMS pwnt me good
- Did my washing (finally)
- Played some WoW with Julia, Lyan and some other guildies
- Moped around
- Played pointless Facebook games
- Watched TNG and was appalled by Wesley's clothing
- Played more WoW and ran Heroic Drak'Tharon Keep with Ingrid, Karine and Matt

I am so not ready for work tomorrow. This week is going to suck, majorly. It's week 4 of the term, which means most classes have about finished their first units of work and have just completed the assessment tasks for them, so I have a ton of marking. At the same time, new units are starting up so I have a crapload of preparation to do. The double whammy of marking and preparation is pwning me so hard. Ow. :(

I guess I should be excited since week 4 is almost halfway through the term and getting closer to the September holidays. But I also have to do my VIT registration stuff before the end of this term, and the feeling of time running out STRESSES ME OUT SO MUCH OMG.


lishesquex: (OMG ONOZ)
Work was not fun today. There are some days when it is fun, but today was not one of them. I'm pretty exhausted. Today!Lish wants to kick yesterday!Lish's butt for staying up so late.

I tried to leave early (like 4pm instead of 7pm) but there was just too much marking to do, and then one of my students' very angsty mother called me up rambled on about her frustrations for half an hour while I had to sound like professional!patient!understanding!Lish. I think I did an okay job of it, but damnit it was exhausting. -.-

My (mostly good) Year 8s and my (nearly always good) Year 9s were little shites today as well. *grumble*

Also, I got an invitation to the Annual Board Dinner which is pretty much compulsory for all new staff to attend. It's basically a dinner that goes from 6pm-10pm where I get to sit with strangers probably 30 years older than me and pretend to be sociable!Lish. I get rather anxious/exhausted by large gatherings of strangers... especially when it's a black tie event, and my bosses will be there. Sooooo not looking forward to it. /o\

Okay, I think I've finished whining now. Sleepy Lish is sleepy.

*wanders off to bed sadly*
lishesquex: (iconomicon - angelina in gia)
Well, dinner was a failure. The cabbage stir fry turned out waaaay too salty. Like, barely edible. And I burnt the beef. Food fail.

Right before dinner, Mum called to check in on us and she ended up falling apart and sobbing over the phone. I really don't know how to deal with that. It sounds horrible, but I'm really glad she's in China.

Today's interview with Yarra Valley Grammar went well. It was the longest interview EVAR. It went for an hour... question after question. And a ten minute spiel at the end about all the things they can offer me. They said they'd have a reply for me in the next 24 hours, which is worrying, because Canterbury Girls' isn't giving me a reply until the end of the week. I hate all this uncertainty.



Oct. 10th, 2008 06:23 pm
lishesquex: (xena - emo gabby)

I hate Fridays.  You'd think I'd like them, because of the weekend, but I don't.  There's so many things I have to do, or should be doing.  I still haven't heard back from any of the jobs I applied to, except for Norwood SC, who were at least nice enough to send me a "sorry but you didn't get the job" email.  Meh.  And I'm too unmotivated and exhausted and busy to apply for more at the moment.  Which worries and stresses me out even more.

Today I have eaten:  1 mug of tea, 2 pity donuts and 1 Tim Tam.  I didn't have time to eat breakfast because I got up at 6am to work on a presentation I had to give today.  There's just too many fucking things to do.

Life is too stressful.


lishesquex: (xena - emo gabby)

.... there, got your attention.

National History Judging was today, so I spent my Sunday, 6:45am-6pm out and about doing teachery things.  Came home exhausted and emo, because the drive home was strangely reminiscent of a different and happier time.

Felt a strange urge to write upon getting home, which is why there is this weirdly Jeanette Winterson-like piece of prose just under this entry.

The bad news is that I've been not in the mood to be productive all evening, so I've got 2 lessons to plan and 1 SAC to write before tomorrow morning, and sleep-time is rapidly diminishing.  It seems unfair that my weekend has been swallowed up by emoness and work.

Anyway.  Time to listen to BassHunter instead of my Emo playlist because I'm more likely to be energetic and productive that way.


Aug. 24th, 2008 12:14 pm
lishesquex: (xena - splat)
I've been sick all weekend. I got home from uni on Friday afternoon and collapsed into bed, and slept on and off all the way till Saturday morning. Most of Saturday was spent in a daze of illness. I remember watching a little of the Olympics and trying to do some planning but that failed. Ended up going to bed and sleeping until... now. Feeling a bit better today, but now I'm incredibly stressed because I just slept away 2 of the 3 days which I had to plan my teaching rounds. Argh. *bangs head against desk*
lishesquex: (iconomicon - angelina in gia)
Yesterday I had a horrible long stressful day where I was out and about from 8am and didn't come home until 9. Today I woke up with a cold. :/ This is not good. I cannot be sick right now, I'm too busy. So today I skipped my two morning classes so that I could get more sleep and maybe fight off this cold quickly. Meh.

*eats an apple*

I recently read about this guy, a gay autisitic savant with mathematical synesthaesia (he can feel the texture/colour/shape of numbers), can "sense" the answer to calculations by the synesthesic landscape in his head, and haz language absorption skillz. He knows like 11 languages, including Icelandic which he learnt in in 1 week. :O Mad skillz. It makes you wonder about the human brain - all the stuff we could do if it were wired a little differently. Also makes you wonder about numbers. There's something almost mystical about being able to solve calculations with no conscious mental effort, because you can see a mental landscape. Like a seventh sense or something. It's like that time in high school biology where we were learning about the senses, and how some animals don't have certain senses, and some don't have any senses... and we started wondering how many senses that we humans are missing that we don't know about?


Life. Life is... stressful as fuck at the moment. My teaching rounds start in a week and I'm scrambling to get everything prepared. Ugh. *runs off*


Jul. 29th, 2008 06:23 pm
lishesquex: (L word - always raining)
I want the year to be over already. I'm so tired and stressed and blah. The tired and stressed, I can deal with. But not when I'm blah at the same time. And I can deal with being blah, but not when I'm too busy stressing out and exhausted too. It's just all too much! >.<

My Australian Indigenous Education tutorial got cancelled again this morning. It's fucking ridiculous. Two weeks into the course and we haven't even had a single tutorial or lecture or even an EMAIL from the subject coordinator/lecturer/tutor. Ridiculous. What a waste of time. A few of us went to the Education office to complain but they just gave us the email of someone else to complain to. Yay.

In other news, tomorrow I'm teaching my first two classes at my new school and I'm terrified. Argh, so stressed out. SO STRESSED OUT.

I will now end this post with a hundred sad smilies to express my disastisfaction with the world:

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(


Jul. 26th, 2008 05:17 pm
lishesquex: (OMG ONOZ)
Currently having a panic attack.

So many things to do.

Sooooooo many things to do.







*head explodes*
lishesquex: (OMG ONOZ)
Gah. I'm totally stressed out.

School has started. Tomorrow is my first day at my second placement, at Koonung Secondary College. I'm a little bit stressed about that. But MOSTLY I'm stressed out about finding a job.

I found out yesterday that most high schools begin advertising vacancies for next year round about... now. So I've started job hunting.

The government department of education recruitment site thingy hasn't got many jobs up yet. There's one that I found today, for Highvale Secondary College which would be like... perfect. I don't exactly match the requirements (they want someone who can teach ESL - I don't think I'm qualified), but it's perfect in every other way (full-time, on-going rather than contract, good government school, close to where I live, subjects that I would like to teach). The close date for applications is this Friday. Like wtf. So now I'm all panicked trying to get all my stuff together to apply before then.







Jun. 2nd, 2008 09:22 pm
lishesquex: (xena - splat)
Omg. I just spent my entire evening correcting crap. And I still have two lessons to plan for tomorrow, and all I want to do is sleep. Omg I'm so tired.

Please can this week be over already? I want to sleep.


May. 22nd, 2008 11:27 pm
lishesquex: (iconomicon - angelina in gia)
One assignment down, two to go. (Yay!) But I have horrible cramps of doom that make me want to curl up and die. :(
lishesquex: (OMG ONOZ)
I have twenty hours to finish three assignments.

lishesquex: (iconomicon - hang in there)



Wee update

May. 12th, 2008 10:59 pm
lishesquex: (xena splat)
I'm eating chestnuts and remembering how Stormy used to be crazy about them. They were like catnip or something. Stupid cat.

I am incredibly stressed out this week. I can't tell you how much. I'm so over this 18 week semester thing. Semesters should be 12 weeks long damnit.

Also, I should apologise for my utter failure at replying to comments lately. Please do keep commenting though. Even if I don't reply, I still read and appreciate them a lot.

In other news, I wish I lived in Finland.
lishesquex: (xena sad gabby)
Meh. Crappy day.

I lost my USB drive which had heaps of stuff on it. I can't remember if there was work I hadn't yet backed up. *sigh* Stupid me for being so careless.

This week is highly stressful. Everything is due in the next two weeks. Followed by the block placement.

Nothing else to report as there is nothing else going on. I lead such an exciting life, yes.
lishesquex: (L word - always raining)
Today was one of those days where you wake up and you cycle through all the reasons why you have to get up today in your head - and then fail to find any of them enough of a motivation.

The thing that finally got me out of bed was my curiosity as to whether Ingrid's publisher had replied to the email. (They had.)

At school, within 3 minutes of arriving, my supervising teacher was like "Look, I'm really not feeling up to taking this morning's tutorial today... would you be up to taking that for me?"

"Umm... okay."

Btw, tutorial = death.

I think I did okay for an improv lesson that was doomed anyway because their tutorial program has been focusing on the topic of "success" for the last 10 weeks and everyone (even the teacher) is sick of it. Unfortunately their rowdiness carried over to the next class (which I was taking) and they were horrible and noisy and unfocused the whole time. My throat feels like I spent 2 hours today yelling. Oh wait, I did. -.-

The rest of the day was just one big blurry mess of exhaustion which is irrelevant to this journal entry.

My father came home from China today. He brought home a new 80 gb ipod for Rianna. *tries not to be jealous* He also brought a new laptop and a new Apple phone (iphone?) for himself. Actually, he'd bought the ipod for himself as well but then spontaneously gave it to Rianna.

It's probably a cold thing to say, but I'm much happier with my father away in China. Everyday feels so much more peaceful and unharried without him in my life. And I prefer it without him. Without his stupid dinner parties, his cigarette smoke, his greasy food, his loud, angry voice, his hypocrisy, his volatile temper.


Yesterday I wasted about two hours talking to a stupid Telstra sales representative (a.k.a. doorknocker). Anyway the end result was that we finally sold our souls and signed up for Bigpond internet. I hate Telstra. But if they can give me faster/better internet, I will give them monies. So despite the massive time and effort expended yesterday, I'm glad the Telstra guy came around because I'm really looking forward to having ADSL2+.

I'm exhausted but I can't go to sleep yet because I need to work on my part of tomorrow's SPC micro-teaching presentation.
On Saturday I must finish Artefact 2.
On Sunday I will do my other LTP reading + journal.
On Monday I will cry from exhaustion and begin another week. >.<


Time to go back to work.


Apr. 6th, 2008 08:32 pm
lishesquex: (alias - close my eyes bw)
I am procrastinating on my essay that was due on Friday by writing about how stressed I am.

Tomorrow another 6 week intensive subject starts up (as if I didn't have enough already!) which will mean I don't get home on Mondays until well past 7pm.  Hooray.

Also, May 23rd.  The fast approaching day of doom.  Pretty much all my subjects have a major assessment due on that day.  And then the following week sees the beginning of my 3 weeks of teaching everyday.

So. Damned. Stressed.



Oh, one other thing.  Despite all the doom and gloom, I did manage to find the time to watch the new Gladiators tonight.  So very lame, but instant 9 year old feeling.  Ahhh.


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