I feel weird

Very soon, I will be having the first job interview of my professional life. That thought just hit me as I was standing in front of the mirror after my shower. I'm all dressed up in a starchy shirt and a formal but feminine cardigan. Earrings, necklace, new glasses. It's... really weird.

Interviews are weird

Back from my interview.

It was pretty different to what I'd been expecting, and a lot of questions caught me totally off guard. But they /seemed/ impressed with my answers, and all of them said I did really well. I still feel like kicking myself for some of the dumb answers I gave, though. So overall... I have no idea how I went.

They said they would get back to me by Tuesday which is before my Mt Scopus interview. So now I have a decision to make. If I get the job, should I take it? Or should I wait for Mt Scopus?

Endings

I knew the angst would come. Once the exhaustion had passed, and the interview stress disappated... BAM! The angst.

I really don't know what to write at the moment, apart from that I'm rather unhappy with the world today. It's partly the miserable weather, partly the annoying english tutorial that always makes me angry. Partly the endings, and goodbyes, including the ones that you didn't see coming but have nevertheless snuck up on you, and it doesn't seem fair because you never agreed to it, but that's just the way it is. And no, it'll never be okay.

A shared experience is what I want. A routine that I can count on. A conversation that isn't at four thirty in the morning and so full of holes anyway that you realise that maybe the silence was better after all.