lishesquex | Inconvenient reminders (Reply)

There's nothing quite like dreaming about death. And when you wake up feeling like you've lost someone you love, and spend the whole day paranoid that something really has happened to them, it really makes you wonder about life and what you value, and whether your life really reflects what you value. And if it doesn't - how do you fix that? And what if you can't fix it, because it's not just up to you? I hate the feeling of helplessness. That if something really did happen to her, it'd be days or weeks before I knew, and there'd be nothing I could do, and hardly anybody would know or understand what she meant to me. And all this time, all these weeks and months and years are wasted because I am not there.

I'm going to stop being vague now and go to bed. Tomorrow I will play WoW Cataclysm and forget about all this.