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lishesquexLast night at karate I was paired up with the girl that was my partner for the fighting sticks on Sunday. I can't quite remember her name. We were practising a movement that required me grabbing her arm/wrist and twisting it around. While doing this, I couldn't help but see healed scars on her wrist and arms. They were pretty deep and very obvious, and she probably saw that I saw. I didn't say anything, and did my best to ignore them. The image kept creeping randomly into my mind today. There was a time when seeing blood and a knife on TV was unbearable. I'm much better now but... it was just a little unsettling to see those scars yesterday.
So, there's this girl who I think is interested in me. She's really pretty and nice and wonderful and I might even have had a crush on her at one point but I just don't feel anything for her beyond simple attraction. And that isn't enough for me. A lot of people don't get it but when I go into a relationship, I'm serious about it... because I've really fallen for that person, and I love them, and I want to/intend to spend the rest of my life with them. So yeah. I'm hopelessly romantic and idealistic and one might say unrealistic in many ways, but I just can't /do/ a relationship that's only a casual fling or a temporary experiment or something. I've been lucky enough to actually experience the real thing (twice, even) and although they didn't work out in the end, it wasn't through lack of trying. I can't and won't settle for anything less.
...Hot, poke-able waitresses at Dracula's don't count. Obviously.
And now, since I can barely move my left hand due to an unfortunate incident in karate, I will go and flop on my bed.
*flop*
So, there's this girl who I think is interested in me. She's really pretty and nice and wonderful and I might even have had a crush on her at one point but I just don't feel anything for her beyond simple attraction. And that isn't enough for me. A lot of people don't get it but when I go into a relationship, I'm serious about it... because I've really fallen for that person, and I love them, and I want to/intend to spend the rest of my life with them. So yeah. I'm hopelessly romantic and idealistic and one might say unrealistic in many ways, but I just can't /do/ a relationship that's only a casual fling or a temporary experiment or something. I've been lucky enough to actually experience the real thing (twice, even) and although they didn't work out in the end, it wasn't through lack of trying. I can't and won't settle for anything less.
...Hot, poke-able waitresses at Dracula's don't count. Obviously.
And now, since I can barely move my left hand due to an unfortunate incident in karate, I will go and flop on my bed.
*flop*
