Shitty day

[lishesquex]

Blah. I am hormonal today. Doesn't help that today has been totally shitty. I was woken up way too early by the sounds of gardening machinery and male voices and mobile phones. I eventually fell back asleep but then had to get up again to pick up my sister from Chinese school. In the car, I suddenly remembered a dream that I'd had that morning, and felt like crying. Then I came home, had lunch, tried to write and got stuck. I was tired so I tried to take a nap, but then mum came home and came into my room and said something about all the other young people having healthy, glowing skin and me needing to go out and exercise and I was like "what's wrong with my skin??" And then she went to my sister's room and scolded her for her messy room and said something about "not following your sister's bad example" and "don't be like her". At this point I gave up on trying to have a nap because I was too unhappy to be lying in my bed, not doing anything. So I got up and tried to write again, but then mum came in AGAIN and started going on about how the uni kids working at the cafe have time to study and work and go out etc, and how I need to do more stuff, and how two weeks ago when I vacuumed the corridor it wasn't clean enough and I was just like ZOMG WTF. Why does EVERYTHING that comes out of her mouth have to be negative? And has she FORGOTTEN that yesterday I weeded the garden, sorted the washing, ordered dinner, spent an hour driving to and fro from Box Hill to pick Rianna up from Saturday school, got the pizzas I ordered for dinner, and bought milk. And after I came home, while I was setting the table, she was saying something about me being lazy and useless, and all the while Rianna isn't doing anything, and the stupid n00b of a boarder is sitting on the couch watching TV and waiting for ME to finish setting up the table. I do everything she tells me to do - sometimes late, sometimes I forget and have to be reminded, sometimes it's not fucking perfect, but GAHHHHHHH IT'S NEVER ENOUGH. And usually I just go and play WoW or blast some loud angry music and get over it, but today I am hormonal and I just feel like crying, but I can't because the stupid guest is over, or mum will come in and yell at me again and I'm unable to cry if I think people are going to see me. So now there's this big ball of frustration and angst inside of me, and I don't know how to get rid of it.

*sigh*

Comments

[andy-star.livejournal.com]

then mum came in AGAIN and started going on about how the uni kids working at the cafe have time to study and work and go out etc, and how I need to do more stuff,

I can totally sympathise. My mum is always on at me to be more social and blah. Meh.

[lishesque.livejournal.com]

Meh. :(

Antisocial hermitage FTW!

[andy-star.livejournal.com]

TOTALLEH.

[http://users.livejournal.com/selina_/]

Ugh, I know exactly what you mean. My mum was exactly like that the summer before I moved out to go to Uni. EVERYTHING was negative, no matter what I did - which made me mega-miserable, or "lazy" as some people like to call it. *headesk*

On a more positive note, once you've moved out - when you do go to visit, you'll be showered with praise and attention and presents, in my experience.

[lishesque.livejournal.com]

Either that, or mum will take up the habit of coming to visit me twice a week and comment on how messy my new places is. :p

THERE IS NO ESCAPE O.O

[redheadedjuliet.livejournal.com]

Seriously ... you need to MOVE. The minute you're gone your poor sister will be terrorised with how much of a saint you were when you lived at home!! And then when I come to Oz next year I'll take you out boogieing and take photos to send as social evidence for your Ma :)

[lishesque.livejournal.com]

I'll move when I get a full time job after next year, but for the time being it's just easier (and cheaper) to stay at home. :) Also, I need to find a girl to move out WITH. ;) And my parents would probably chuck a spaz because they're over-protective and like family to stay together, but we'll see. :)

Zomg so you're coming to Melbourne next year?? Or elsewhere in Australia? :)

[redheadedjuliet.livejournal.com]

Yeah, well not sure exactly where or at what time, but planning to be in Oz around October next year and I'm bound to hit Melbourne at some stage seeing as I'll be there for about a year :)I might even get you to come diving!

[lishesque.livejournal.com]

Oooh, diving! I really want to try that but I've always been too chicken. Maybe you can convince me. :D