Troubled connections

[lishesquex]

Ever since getting broadband, emule (my file sharing program) hasn't been working properly. The internet would pretty much stop working every time I opened emule, and nothing would download anyway. I did a little TCP and UDP connection test and neither were successful, which basically meant emule was fucked. And that really sucks because what's the point of broadband (apart from 24 hour connection and fastness) if you can't download enormous craploads of music and movies?? I mean really!

But, and this is a very triumphant and happy but... BUT, I think I've fixed it. :-) After some fiddling around with networky stuff that I don't really understand, I managed to get a new port working and now everything seems to be working again. *knocks on woo-- oh crap. Too late. MSN and AIM both just disconnected, and emule, which was downloading a song happily just a few seconds ago has stopped again. ARRRGHHHH!

Tomorrow. *twitch* Tomorrow I will fix this.

My mother hasn't stopped going on about my career choices for a year.  It's pretty much chipping away all my self confidence... not that I had all that much in the first place, and making me increasingly neurotic and antisocial.  *sigh*  I wish she'd just let me be.  The constant (and I really do mean constant... as in every time she talks to me.  As in whole 30 minute slabs of sitting in my room, repeating things she's already said) nagging has resulted in me giving in to her latest design for me, meaning I'm gonna try and learn enough Chinese to take the HSK, which is an exam so that you can get an internationally recognized certificate of I-Officially-Know-Chinese.  She means well, and I'm trying to see the positive side of getting this certificate - and I can see a few - but I wish she'd just respect my choices enough not to oppressively dictate my life to me.  And this is exactly the reason why I refuse to come out! My mum would NAG me into becoming straight.  She really would.

In other news, I watched Brokeback Mountain today with the lovely tangledtale today. It was an excellent if highly depressing movie. I cried.  Several times.  Go watch it!

Now. Hopefully the net is working enough to let me post this...

Comments

[poeticinsanity.livejournal.com]

*shudders* after 11 years of learning Mandarin I can't even think about it without my stomach dropping! What are the actual benefits of having the certificate... is it just a status thing?

and in regards to:

And this is exactly the reason why I refuse to come out! My mum would NAG me into becoming straight. She really would.

My Mum really does. She actually nags me to 'try' being straight! She really doesn't get it... *banghead*

[lishesque.livejournal.com]

*shudders* after 11 years of learning Mandarin I can't even think about it without my stomach dropping! What are the actual benefits of having the certificate... is it just a status thing?

Urgh, my stomach went all weird too when I read about the oral exam part of the HSK. When I was in year 11 (doing VCE units 3 and 4) I missed my Chinese oral exam... got the day wrong... omg... it was like a nightmare (and I did have nightmares about it for months afterwards). Luckily for me, someone rang someone who rang someone else and I was able to sit for it on another day. But omg scary. And sooo not looking forward to having more scary Chinese exams.

I'm not sure about the benefits of having the certificate actually. I think if you get the highest level one, you're certified to work as a translator, but I probably won't be getting that one. I'll most likely try for the one that's a couple of levels down from the highest, which will hopefully let me teach Mandarin. :)

My Mum really does. She actually nags me to 'try' being straight! She really doesn't get it... *banghead*

Bleh. Sorry to hear that. You're out to your parents then?

[poeticinsanity.livejournal.com]

I'm only out to my Mum. I had to tell her... it came to a point where she found it so odd how I'd never show any interest in any of the guys who were interested in me... and how my bedroom was covered in photos of female celebrities and no males etc... and she wasn't getting the picture at all as to why.
If you back to around July/August last year in my LJ I documented the whole 'coming' out thing and the gradual reaction change over the months after.
I'm guessing you're not out to your parents?

[lishesque.livejournal.com]

Nope. :) *sits in closet, knits a scarf*

I'm out to all my online friends and most of my real life friends though. Just not parents... 'cos parents are scary.